Saturday, June 5, 2010

Trust in the Lord

So a good friend once advised me to look up the scripture Proverbs 3:5. It says,"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding." This person has referred me to that scripture on many other occasions since then and I have heard it on many other occasions from different people. "Trust in the Lord" Four simple words to follow but yet I find it to be easier said then done. I don't really know why that is. I find myself reading this scripture over and over in my mind during difficult times or when difficult decisions need to be made yet I can't bring myself to actually put my trust in him. I have never been one to trust others easily. This is because almost every person I have ever trusted has let me down or hurt me. I could honestly count on one hand the number of people that haven't hurt me. And even with those few I sit and wait for the day they will. Maybe it's because of this that I find myself having a hard time putting my trust in the Lord. That sounds so horrible to me, like I'm a horribly unfaithful person. I know my fear is stupid because I know the Lord is the one person who will never let me down, who will never hurt me, and will never abandon me. I know that with all my heart to be true...but it still is so hard to do! I know that Heavenly Father knows what path I need to go down and He knows what is best for me and He won't give me more than I can handle. But i don't do well with uncertainty. I like to be in control. I don't like change to happen without it being my choice. I know if I trust in the Lord everything will work out the way it's supposed to. But what if the way things are supposed to happen aren't the way I want them to?I used to be so sure of what my future was going to be like. How everything was going to happen, who it was going to happen with, what I was going to do with my life... But now everything is changing. I'm not certain anymore. I have no idea where my life is headed anymore and that scares me. I feel like the whole world is weighing down on my shoulders. I know what I need to do to feel relief. But like I said, trusting is easier said then done .

2 comments:

Lisa said...

Amen Sister. I think a lot of people feel that way I know I do sometimes. I read on a blog once that he thought the lord does give you more than you can handle so that you have to turn to him to get through it. (He said it better than that,) but I found some truth in his message. Call or better yet come over if you need to talk.

Lisa said...

I will show you his post one day if you want. He even quotes your exact scripture!!