So a good friend once advised me to look up the scripture Proverbs 3:5. It says,"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding." This person has referred me to that scripture on many other occasions since then and I have heard it on many other occasions from different people. "Trust in the Lord" Four simple words to follow but yet I find it to be easier said then done. I don't really know why that is. I find myself reading this scripture over and over in my mind during difficult times or when difficult decisions need to be made yet I can't bring myself to actually put my trust in him. I have never been one to trust others easily. This is because almost every person I have ever trusted has let me down or hurt me. I could honestly count on one hand the number of people that haven't hurt me. And even with those few I sit and wait for the day they will. Maybe it's because of this that I find myself having a hard time putting my trust in the Lord. That sounds so horrible to me, like I'm a horribly unfaithful person. I know my fear is stupid because I know the Lord is the one person who will never let me down, who will never hurt me, and will never abandon me. I know that with all my heart to be true...but it still is so hard to do! I know that Heavenly Father knows what path I need to go down and He knows what is best for me and He won't give me more than I can handle. But i don't do well with uncertainty. I like to be in control. I don't like change to happen without it being my choice. I know if I trust in the Lord everything will work out the way it's supposed to. But what if the way things are supposed to happen aren't the way I want them to?I used to be so sure of what my future was going to be like. How everything was going to happen, who it was going to happen with, what I was going to do with my life... But now everything is changing. I'm not certain anymore. I have no idea where my life is headed anymore and that scares me. I feel like the whole world is weighing down on my shoulders. I know what I need to do to feel relief. But like I said, trusting is easier said then done .
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Trust in the Lord
So a good friend once advised me to look up the scripture Proverbs 3:5. It says,"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding." This person has referred me to that scripture on many other occasions since then and I have heard it on many other occasions from different people. "Trust in the Lord" Four simple words to follow but yet I find it to be easier said then done. I don't really know why that is. I find myself reading this scripture over and over in my mind during difficult times or when difficult decisions need to be made yet I can't bring myself to actually put my trust in him. I have never been one to trust others easily. This is because almost every person I have ever trusted has let me down or hurt me. I could honestly count on one hand the number of people that haven't hurt me. And even with those few I sit and wait for the day they will. Maybe it's because of this that I find myself having a hard time putting my trust in the Lord. That sounds so horrible to me, like I'm a horribly unfaithful person. I know my fear is stupid because I know the Lord is the one person who will never let me down, who will never hurt me, and will never abandon me. I know that with all my heart to be true...but it still is so hard to do! I know that Heavenly Father knows what path I need to go down and He knows what is best for me and He won't give me more than I can handle. But i don't do well with uncertainty. I like to be in control. I don't like change to happen without it being my choice. I know if I trust in the Lord everything will work out the way it's supposed to. But what if the way things are supposed to happen aren't the way I want them to?I used to be so sure of what my future was going to be like. How everything was going to happen, who it was going to happen with, what I was going to do with my life... But now everything is changing. I'm not certain anymore. I have no idea where my life is headed anymore and that scares me. I feel like the whole world is weighing down on my shoulders. I know what I need to do to feel relief. But like I said, trusting is easier said then done .
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Bad Habits and Addictions
So as many of you know I am a very random person, and sit and have deep thought processes about really random stuff. Well just now I was trying to think of something I could blog about and I somehow started thinking about how I have a few bad habits which then led to me thinking about how those bad habits have to do with some of my addictions. The bad habit I was thinking of mostly is how when I am really upset I tend to spend money. Now this is not good at
all because I am a poor college student and can't afford to be spending money on things I don't need...actually I should rephrase that, I can't afford to be spending money on clothes I don't need. However, when I do spend upset money I only buy things that are on sale...$5 and under is usually my price range for on sale items. I absolutely LOVE getting things on sale. I will walk through Walmart and look and cute clothes and say to myself "I am totally getting this when it goes on sale!" My philosophy is if I never see it on sale then it wasn't meant to be. Also, if I see something on sale I like and decide not to get it, but go back a day or two later and it is still there then it was meant to be. Maybe this philosophy isn't the best one, but I figure it saves me from buying everything I see. This shirt on the right is actually one I just saw and am waiting to go on sale:)
Speaking of cheap stuff, about a week ago I found some way cute sunglasses at Walmart for $5!!! Now here goes into one my addictions...SUNGLASSES!!! I can't have enough of them!!! No I don't have a million pairs, if I let myself go I probably I would, but I hold back. I really do love them though. This addiction was started when I went to New York and wanted to buy some super cute ones because I actually needed a pair, and what better place to get some then New York! Well I bought a couple pairs there and as they say the rest is history. Also with my sunglasses, the bigger the better! Yes I am one of those weirdies who loves the huge bugeye glasses but I don't care!
Do you know what goes good with sunglasses? Swimsuits! That is another of my addictions. I just love summer because of swimsuit season. Again, if I let myself I would have a ton of swimsuits. But sadly I only have a couple pairs because again I am cheap, and all the really cute swimming suites are not cheap, especially tankinis. But that doesn't stop me from looking at them whenever I am in a store.
So going back to the money spending topic (I know I'm random) but I found that this last birthday and Christmas I basically spent the majority of my money on one thing....MOVIES!!! Yes I am a movie maniac. I honestly could spend most of my time just watching movies. I love them. I don't know why I just do. I get it from my grandma, she is a movie maniac too. And we both love getting movies at a great deal. Maybe it's the excitement of buying cheap movies...or the fact that they are entertaining...either way they are great and I am happy to be able to share that love with my grandma :)
Another media addiction I have is music. I love it! And as any of my roommates will tell you I have a very wide variety of music! I love listening to new stuff. I will listen to almost anything. About the only thing I stay away from is the screamo rock stuff. That is just annoying to me. Other than that, anything goes. It's really a kicker if I can dance to it. I have this crazy
choreographer brain that whenever I listen to music i will just start seeing dances. Not all music, but most. If a song makes me want to dance then it's a good one. If it doesn't then that's okay too. Most of my favorite songs I probably wouldn't choreograph to. Without music I think I would be lost to be honest with you. Probably because without music I couldn't dance...well I could but it wouldn't be the same. Music is so powerful. That probably sounds dumb and cheesy but it's true. How many people when they have a bad day have that one song that you just want to crank up and play, or even just plug yourself into your ipod for a little escape from the problem. How many when they are having a good turn up the music and just jam out. How many people can say they can go throughout their whole day and never hear a piece of music? Probably very few and they are probably the ones that have shut themselves off from the world. Music is so universal. Sorry for this tangent about music...I honestly don't know how I got here...or what the purpose is...I'm weird...get used to it.
all because I am a poor college student and can't afford to be spending money on things I don't need...actually I should rephrase that, I can't afford to be spending money on clothes I don't need. However, when I do spend upset money I only buy things that are on sale...$5 and under is usually my price range for on sale items. I absolutely LOVE getting things on sale. I will walk through Walmart and look and cute clothes and say to myself "I am totally getting this when it goes on sale!" My philosophy is if I never see it on sale then it wasn't meant to be. Also, if I see something on sale I like and decide not to get it, but go back a day or two later and it is still there then it was meant to be. Maybe this philosophy isn't the best one, but I figure it saves me from buying everything I see. This shirt on the right is actually one I just saw and am waiting to go on sale:)Speaking of cheap stuff, about a week ago I found some way cute sunglasses at Walmart for $5!!! Now here goes into one my addictions...SUNGLASSES!!! I can't have enough of them!!! No I don't have a million pairs, if I let myself go I probably I would, but I hold back. I really do love them though. This addiction was started when I went to New York and wanted to buy some super cute ones because I actually needed a pair, and what better place to get some then New York! Well I bought a couple pairs there and as they say the rest is history. Also with my sunglasses, the bigger the better! Yes I am one of those weirdies who loves the huge bugeye glasses but I don't care!Do you know what goes good with sunglasses? Swimsuits! That is another of my addictions. I just love summer because of swimsuit season. Again, if I let myself I would have a ton of swimsuits. But sadly I only have a couple pairs because again I am cheap, and all the really cute swimming suites are not cheap, especially tankinis. But that doesn't stop me from looking at them whenever I am in a store.So going back to the money spending topic (I know I'm random) but I found that this last birthday and Christmas I basically spent the majority of my money on one thing....MOVIES!!! Yes I am a movie maniac. I honestly could spend most of my time just watching movies. I love them. I don't know why I just do. I get it from my grandma, she is a movie maniac too. And we both love getting movies at a great deal. Maybe it's the excitement of buying cheap movies...or the fact that they are entertaining...either way they are great and I am happy to be able to share that love with my grandma :)Another media addiction I have is music. I love it! And as any of my roommates will tell you I have a very wide variety of music! I love listening to new stuff. I will listen to almost anything. About the only thing I stay away from is the screamo rock stuff. That is just annoying to me. Other than that, anything goes. It's really a kicker if I can dance to it. I have this crazy
choreographer brain that whenever I listen to music i will just start seeing dances. Not all music, but most. If a song makes me want to dance then it's a good one. If it doesn't then that's okay too. Most of my favorite songs I probably wouldn't choreograph to. Without music I think I would be lost to be honest with you. Probably because without music I couldn't dance...well I could but it wouldn't be the same. Music is so powerful. That probably sounds dumb and cheesy but it's true. How many people when they have a bad day have that one song that you just want to crank up and play, or even just plug yourself into your ipod for a little escape from the problem. How many when they are having a good turn up the music and just jam out. How many people can say they can go throughout their whole day and never hear a piece of music? Probably very few and they are probably the ones that have shut themselves off from the world. Music is so universal. Sorry for this tangent about music...I honestly don't know how I got here...or what the purpose is...I'm weird...get used to it.So there are some of my bad habits and addictions...mostly addictions. There are many more I'm sure. I can think of one inparticular that I am not going to share because it would be TMI for sure! My roommates know what it is...mostly because they got me into it! Haha! We'll see if they can figure out what it is after reading this! Lol. So I think this may be the most random post I've done yet...there will definately be more I'm sure. I'm sorry if I bored you with my ranting. But now you can know a little bit more about Aleigh that you may not have known before. Anyway. I guess I'll go now. Til next time!
April/May Quotes
April 8
"There are short-cuts to happiness, and dancing is one of them." -Vicki Baum
April 15
When you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power. -Hugh White
April 25
Never take life too seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyways
April 26
We must not give up. We must not become discouraged. We must never surrender to the forces of evil ~ Gordon B. Hinckley
May 3
Meaningful love always works for our eternal progress and not against it. ~Marvin J. Ashton
May 6
I need a vacation from my problems! ~What About Bob (Or Lisa, she quotes this one a lot! LoL)
May 7
This mortal life can constitute a difficult journey, but the destination is truly glorious. ~Quentin L. Cook
May 8
"If someone wants to be part of your life, they'll make an effort to be in it."
May 9
"A mother's love is a special place where children always have a home."
May 10
We may be behind, but we are not losing if we are moving in the right direction. God will not score our performances until the end of the journey. ~ Marvin J. Ashton
May 19
We do not stop laughing because we grow old. We grow old because we stop laughing
May 26
When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it ~ Henry Ford
"There are short-cuts to happiness, and dancing is one of them." -Vicki Baum
April 15
When you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power. -Hugh White
April 25
Never take life too seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyways
April 26
We must not give up. We must not become discouraged. We must never surrender to the forces of evil ~ Gordon B. Hinckley
May 3
Meaningful love always works for our eternal progress and not against it. ~Marvin J. Ashton
May 6
I need a vacation from my problems! ~What About Bob (Or Lisa, she quotes this one a lot! LoL)
May 7
This mortal life can constitute a difficult journey, but the destination is truly glorious. ~Quentin L. Cook
May 8
"If someone wants to be part of your life, they'll make an effort to be in it."
May 9
"A mother's love is a special place where children always have a home."
May 10
We may be behind, but we are not losing if we are moving in the right direction. God will not score our performances until the end of the journey. ~ Marvin J. Ashton
May 19
We do not stop laughing because we grow old. We grow old because we stop laughing
May 26
When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it ~ Henry Ford
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