So a couple of weeks ago Kyler had his first preschool
graduation/program. He did so good and was so darn cute up there singing all the songs (he LOVES!!! to sing). I got a little teary when he was up there spelling his name. He is getting so big and grown up. It seems like yesterday we were picking he and my mom up from the
airport when he got to come home to us. Sometimes I hate how fast time flies. But he is such a stinkin cute boy who can't wait to be back in school again :)
So Monday I had to make a quick trip up to Cedar for the studio I work at's Recital. I drove down with my mom and grandma and we had a good little trip. It was so fun to see my kids again. They all did an awesome job.
My boys are just the best, it doesn't matter what they do everybody loves them. And I am so proud of how much my girls have improved over this year. I just love teaching dance! Even though it is hard and stressful, especially because I had some hard classes this year, watching them perform and seeing how much fun they are having makes it totally worth it. I am very happy for the summer break, but I also can't wait for next year to start because I have so many choreograhpy ideas I just can't wait to get out there!
graduation/program. He did so good and was so darn cute up there singing all the songs (he LOVES!!! to sing). I got a little teary when he was up there spelling his name. He is getting so big and grown up. It seems like yesterday we were picking he and my mom up from the airport when he got to come home to us. Sometimes I hate how fast time flies. But he is such a stinkin cute boy who can't wait to be back in school again :)
So I find that I am using this blog to complain a lot. I'm really sorry about that. My life is a mess at the moment and it helps to get it out there. I promise this will not always be a complaining blog. But for right now it is. My life has gotten so confusing! I don't know how I let this happen. I used to be so sure about what I wanted and about how my life was supposed to end up. But now I am completely lost. Maybe my life is supposed to go down some path that I don't know about, or I do know about but have not really wanted to accept. Maybe this confusion is supposed to make me realize something or learn some kind of valuable lesson. I don't know. All I know is my life is way too complicated right now. I have only been home for a week and I'm already wanting to go back to Cedar where I don't have to deal with my confusion. I know it's a shocker. I never want to be in Cedar, but it's become my safe haven away from my problems, well at least the problems I don't want to deal with right now. I miss my roomies!!! They always knew how to distract me and cheer me up. Now I'm home with no where to turn to. I guess I should just face my problems and deal with them, but I really don't want to. It's so much easier to hide. I hate being so lost and confused! I hate feeling the way I do. I honestly feel like I have done something horribly wrong and I don't know why. Maybe I have. People are telling me I haven't but I feel like I have. If this is how my summer is going to be I am not looking forward to it. Hopefully the confusion ends soon before I go mad!!! Well thanks again for letting me vent. I promise to try and have some happiness to talk about next time. Til next time...
